so inspired

to do something. to start over. to get it together. learn me. get to know me. do it for real. i have the opportunity with open hands. and im gonna take it. it might hurt. ill be sad alot. but i plan to get a puppy when i get there or beforehand for the drive down to keep it not so lonely. i think that would be nice. i have so many thoughts. all day. like. do i go? what do i have to do here before i go. how is it gonna work. is my dad gonna give me a room or just a bed. am i going to love it? will i be okay? how am i going to feel. Im more excited than anything. i have no bad thoughts or feelings. i feel like this is something i 100% need to do. i want to learn to live.
start this shit over.

i have so many plans. i want to write. i want to be inspired. i want to give up and give in. i want to say "fuck it" and do it. do what? go. i cant wait to get paid again. im kinda behind at the moment. but i wont be for long.

i have a ton of shit to do. to take care of. things to plan. get in order. and make it real. i feel like im about the make the best decision of my life.

maybe i havent even said what im doing
im taking a transfer of my job and going to a brand new branch opening in Delray Beach florida.
i will be moving in with my dad.
getting the volkswagen back.
pretty much starting over.
theres a ton of things i need to do for myself and my life.
even if i only stay for 6 months
my job here said i am always welcome back if i get home sick or if things dont work out
so what do i have to lose?
seriously.
i miss smoking cigarettes
ive been buying packs lately and smoking them randomly
they make me feel sick
but at the same time SOMETIMES i feel comforted, less stress.
like i said, i feel like im learning about me every single day
what makes me go.
im excited for the drive to florida. i want to make it. no tears, time to be a big girl. im 22 years old and i feel i have nothing to show for it because im in no place. i want to be normal. feel normal.
i cant wait to finish my second sleeve. which i will definitely finish before i go to florida.
jon glessner of course is going to be the main man with it.
ive been into shoulder tattoos
like little scripts
i think i want ..... nevermind i decided not to share

:P

im such a tattoo snob ha