last night i decided i was sick of the way my meds make me feel. like seriously SICK OF IT. so instead of taking 3 pills i took 2. and in 2 days ill take just one. one should be fine. i really just cant do it anymore. i have no anxiety which is a good thing but i have no energy to go out. no energy to want to do anything. im tired all the time. and its not fair.
today will be an alright day. i dont have a car. me and tim are suppose to be going up to american apparel so i can apply for a job!! (fingers crossed!!! its a back stock job which is REALLY what i want to do, no retail bullshit selling things ha) Okay so its not really what i "want" to do in life but i need a second job and im not looking for a career. i am 21 years old. i can worry about a career in a couple years. Im not going to stress myself! I can have 2 easy part time jobs and ill enjoy myself and still have money and ill be happy.


Hey im not writing about it because i dont want to bum myself out.



Im getting my car fixed hopefully today!!!!